Blog Post 4/22/21 - Matthew Smith

Its been a long while since the blog received a post, and Ill admit fault for that, the majority of this year i've had a bad case of senioritis. Everything just seems so unimportant, ya know? I used to think that senioritis was a big deal but now that i'm here I understand the complaints of my peers. I've spent the past 12 years of my life building up to getting into college and now that I've done that, I feel content. As long as I continue to pass, I'm good for the rest of highschool, so why should I care. But that's the issue I really should care, and I know that I should its just so much effort to. So now I'm sitting here, multiple months behind on blog posts, writing this as I prepare for work. Something that I’ve always wondered about is how many people read this, like I could probably write weird stuff and not many people would notice, like the only person who proof-reads these is myself so I really can just do whatever. Did you know that platypi (platypusses? Platypodes? platypus?) sweat milk. Im kinda just running out of stuff to write so Ill just kinda write down whatever Im thinking about. My favorite band right now is Car Seat Headrest, its an indie rock band (really its a guy named Will Toledo who is the core of it but the other members do matter) and they make some wacky music. Theyve got like 10 albums out in the past decade and the first ones were made in a Target parking lot in Will Toledo’s car. Like its just some funky stuff, the first albums you can definitely tell they were not professionally done at all, but its still good. A lot of the songs are like 10-15 minutes long and very ballad-esque. Especially some of my favorite songs like The Ballad of the Costa Concordia, a 12ish minute long song that is just a giant metaphor for Will Toledos life, or Beach-Life-In-Death with is a 13 minute long song about his relationships. My favorite song though is called Drunk Drivers/Killer Whales and is just pure serotonin everytime I hear it, its one of those songs that make you feel like driving into the unknown with some friends in the middle of the night and just going where the road takes you, its such a perfect mixture of hype and slow parts and heartfelt lyrics and no matter what you are doing it just hits every time. Definitely give them a listen if you like good music. Next up on my mental vomit into word form is gonna be what im feeling right now. Im kind of at this weird point in my life where I dont know what to do, I got some great friends and a lot of free time, but I dont have anything to do. Like I want to hang out and chill but I just cant find the energy to do things sometimes. Like its just so hard some days to do anything, I want to just drive off into the middle of nowhere and just be alone but I also want to be with my friends. Thankfully my major FOMO drives me to hang out when I dont want to and most of the time it ends up being ok. But when its not fun and I just want to go home ill end up dissasociating a lot of the times and then it sucks because my friends all are like “are you ok?” and I have to tell them yeah cause I dont want to tell them that I dont want to be around them, cause its not about them, its just that I ran out of social energy and cant deal with people. I dont know if any of what I just said is relatable to the general populous but hopefully its at least its understandable. Ok next thing is as Im writing this im waiting to start work, (btw I work various events around magnolia ISD as a lighting/sound technician, basically I press buttons every once in a while and play on my phone) so I was supposed to start work at 4:30, but no one has showed up yet. Like bruh, I dont mind it a whole lot because I can get this blog post done and vibe with some music over the sound system but like its highkey rude. Im only here for the money so either tell me the right time or pay me more, but I digress (channeling some Mrs.Celestine with that). I think this is about where ill end the blog post for today, so thank you for reading if you made it this far, listen to Car Seat Headrest and goodbye.